Two updates in one here. For those who don't know, I got a new Kawasaki Ninja 250 just last Friday (8 days ago today).

Now, today, there was a Spanish Clud party at my school in the cafeteria. it's hard to explain this part because I'm sure most of you don't know the layout of my school and the area around it. I'll explain as best I can:

I parked out front and went to the door, and there was a sign basicly saying to go around to the back door to the cafeteria. So I did, found the door, and sat for a while waiting for the aprty to start. I decided at one point to go and bring my bike around back so I could leave faster when I was ready to go, since I was effing bored anyway. I took it around, and decided to take a ride up to the middle school, since the junior high and middle school are practically right next to each other. I ride up the bus "ramp" and down that road, and turn into the bus dropoff/pickup. Now, see, this is where everything went wrong. On the end of that road, there's a circle the buses use to turn around. I went to make the turn around in the circle. And, of course, my tires lost traction on the loose dirt and gravel, and I went sliding on the road for a good few feet, almost hit the curb, even. My knee got a pretty ugly burn, and the back of my upper arm got burnt really bad, along with a small spot on my shoulder and my forearm.

I rode back to the school on my friend's moped with him since my bike wouldn't start right away. I swear, my teacher nearly had a heart attack when I walked in with ripped clothes and huge, black road burns. Luckily, Maestro's friend who was there helping with the party was a paramedic, so I got fixed up pretty fast. (The real miracle: When he sprayed the peroxide stuff on me, I did NOT curse or scream. ) Some guys had gone to push my bike back for me, so I didn't have to worry about anything else but sitting there till I felt good enough to go home.

Now, damage reports on things other than my body:
Shoes: Ruined. Pants: Ripped in the crotch and knee. Inuyasha shirt: Shoulder torn out. Bike: Small spot on the chasis under the left rear-view mirror got ground down, and a very small spot on the tire guard thingy got burned. All in all, I'll live, and my bike's not in bad shape at all. MY CLOTHES ARE JUST RUINED. T_T

Now I just gotta worry about sleeping on these injuries, they stink like hell. x.o

I was sick all last week, and I still feel crappy. Not to mention, one of my best friends killed herself over the weekend, and I've been uber lonely lately. I can't even sleep right now. All I can do is cry. I need someone with me, I'm so tired of being alone and not having anyone to lean on when I need help. No one's ever around when I need them, no matter how much they say they care, they're never around to prove it when I really need them too, and I'm sick of it. Everyone's so self-centered that they can't see me falling farther and farther away. No one cares. There's only been one person lately who's demonstrated any love to me at all, and even she's not around enough to help. I need someone. Just one fucking person to help me.

I haven't been updating often here anymore. I'm sorry everyone. i'vebeen really upset lately, a lot of crap just keeps pelting me, and it's really wearing me down. I don't honestly know how I can wake up in the morning knowing that the day ahead is just going to bring even more pain.

Today was awesome. I actually feel like I have a life now. A real one. I'm making lots of new friends, Brooke's getting jealous over some girl who started hanging out with me after she and I broke up, and I got to hang out with Brooke and Amy after school today. Even though it was cold and wet from the rain this morning. Sarah was with us too, but she had to go to work at 3:50, so she didn't get to stay long. I helped her get a malt from the diner before she left, 'cause I'm just that nice.

We went to the diner and talked for a while. (They split a burger and a couple drinks, I just sat and waited. And I paid $5 out of the $10 they used to buy the meal. Aren't I nice?)

Then we walked around town for a while, went to the grocery store so Brooke could buy gum, and ended up hanging out at my house for the restof the afternoon till they left to go to a game to bug the jocks and preps.

I never knew Amy could play guitar. Or that Brooke liked cuddling so much that she'd do it with her ex. Then again, like I said, it was cold. Even I was cold, and I'm very warm-natured. Brooke and I basicly got a private concert with Amy in my room since there was nothing else to do. That was pretty fun, even though my old guitar is out of tune and has only 5 of the 6 strings it's supposed to have.

I had an interesting day yesterday...

Went out to party with someone. ^-^ They didn't pick me up to go until about 3 and a half hours after they said they would though. But after tyhat, we all went to the movies, then the mall, then back to my friend's house. It lasted about 8+ hours total, plus the girls got to sleep over.

And the 22nd was my birthday, to those of you who didn't know. (Which I'd say is all of you, since no one said anything.)